I think I should be also sorry for anyone else I have harmed during my MLPF presence. You are allowed to shoot me a message here if you think I did.

• Me getting a warning or suspension for a hot-headed politics post in which I wrote in caps at parts and insulted a specific politician. I was given as a the reason the rule about “No swearing (but rarely gets sanctioned) or insulting other people on the forums”, and I was totally confused and caught up about how I would have insulted someone else, and when I asked which of the two I did break and to be more precise, this was probably seen as me playing dumb? I mean, I can see it from nowadays perspective why the ban happened, but not then.
• Using loaded words at times esp. when stressed, probably coming over the pressuring? Especially when I could have used more mild phrases and words, such as regarding calling someone homo/transphobic, instead I could have gone by “You are hurting them this way. Please stop.”, albeit that of course only works if the other person cares in the slightest about that. (Let’s be honest: calling someone h/t phobic is very loaded with negative associations)
• And some other inter-social stuff as still had to learn there is a difference to recommend someone to see a therapist or asking if they are seeing one.
• Okay, and picking up other social clues, ESPECIALLY when people expect me to do without telling me to do so. I can’t see into their minds.

If you want to know about the stuff, add me on Discord;: Bas#0679

If you are afraid of whatever, you can do with a new/smurf account.

Actually, my profile didn’t get purged instantly. Interestingly, it did get purged when I was in DM chat on discord with a staffer and telling them that seemingly I could still post blog entries, not even just scheduled ones but also new ones.

I did test out one time while being in chat with that staffer and then Jeric did purge my profile of all content after…I did tell the site’s staff about a security leak? Really? Don’t ask me, I can’t explain it more than that either.

Now, why did I get banned in the first place?
Partly for not obying the “no politics” rule, partly because I told one or two staffers to be homo/trans phobic, albeit I am not sure whether I did on the second directly and myself or just wrote “People think you are homophobic” (or alike). Part of the reason it escalated was because it seems to have had a highly negative emotional effect on at least one of these two, and I can only make guesses what this means more precisely.
(I just want to note that I was at conflict with staff quite some times, no, not the things that were mentioned in the announcement. I am just writing this here so nobody can accuse me of not admitting this part. I am probably pretty…taxing, because I ask people to honestly tell me stuff, but people usually don’t but assume things instead)

I don’t think I am fully innocent, no. I am absolutely at fault for not taking into account the known mental illnesses of one and didn’t think of it at that time, and which effect this might have on them as well as fatally not having seen a sign on a forums post or thread that pointed towards that person not feeling well.

It didn’t help me though that there was basically no difference made between me and the other guy, especially in the announcement, but not only there, so it was hard to tell for me whether my actions did cause this or how much of it or the one who was talking about…very hideous stuff doing with people. I don’t want to go into detail about them simply in case a person mentioned by that guy would (unlikely) read this post, to avoid some triggers.

Originally, the ban was intended to go off after two weeks after a political status update.

Roughly, the following of events after it was roughly:

• Me writing to jeric in DM, complaining about the ban
• Jeric basically enforcing warnings or whatever, and likely will point out I was just salty about them, instead of acknowledge Jeric is totally using devastating phrasing and wording, literally I felt ashamed most of the time Jeric actually replies whenever someone is going on Jeric’s nerves. How do I put it? It feels like a teacher is pulling you into the corner of the class, putting a funny hat on you and then shames you for every little thing that is not perfect on your. An endless assault.
  Basically, once you got Jeric’s ire on you there is nothing you can do or reply, Jeric won’t listen to you anymore what you got to say. Everything you write is just a means to manipulate Jeric then. No way out for you, no matter what you write or say, except maybe if you bow down to Jeric and apologize while Jeric points a gun at you and screams “APOLOGIZE NOW” - That’s how it felt for me.
• And as such, Jeric has caused the third or fourth mental breakdown of mine. Stuff where I did put myself in danger of physical self-harm in order to get rid of the psychic, emotional pain. (Jeric did once admit by replying “we know it hurts, that why we did it”, and I am not sure I can think of any breakdown related to MLPF in which Jeric did not play a major role…)
• I did post the ban message to other people on Discord DMs, albeit I was actually relucant on that very other person at first but did get persuaded by that guy. He basically told me stuff he would do, got actually even more aggressive towards staff than I was, and even before he posted the hideous threats, I did rebuke him and told him to stop pretty quickly.
  He also did post the allegation that one staffer is only in that position for dating another staffer, which I disagreed with by saying that the person was in staff on that position prior to dating (this is the only message from the screenshot in the announcement topic that was written by me)
• I did forward that chat to Jeric in Discord DM. Ironically, if I had no conscience and didn’t do so, I would not be banned. I don’t regret in the sense that I would do differently if such a situation would appear ever again, but wow, what an irony. Banned because I had a conscience.
• The day after, I was still in mental breakdowns caused by Jeric and had to take care to not harm myself, I deleted the message IDs of the other guy and said “I won’t help you”. This was explicitly directed at Jeric. Not at MLPF staffers. I contacted two or three after, of which one replied and I assisted with all information I had available.

Why did I redact the message IDs? Well, Jeric did never care a single thing about the stuff Jeric caused to me. Jeric did even respond when I told Jeric “Oh, [Country XX] has good healthcare.” Like what? I am telling you you got me close to harm myself and that’s your response? For real!? If I spoke with to one of the staffers mentioned above, my reaction would rather be “I didn’t mean for that to happen” or “I am sorry you went through this”.

Imagine for a second I would have replied to the two staffers what Jeric has written to me instead.

So yeah, I did remove them because Jeric did enforce power over me all the time and did not care for what consequences would be for me. Ironically…Jeric did accuse me of being responsible for what I wrote regarding the other two staffers and their emotional consequences. I am not even sure I would disagree with that, but I can’t read thoughts and their mental states, and at least apply the logic for both sides?

No Jeric. This is not because I got banned. This is because you absolute choose most destructive wording and blaming, highlightening every single weakness of someone, and you know you are doing it. You are doing it on purpose, you told me so. You are absolutely devastating with it, and refuse to admit it, or admit it, but don’t care, but expect people actually to act differently than you are.

And then people wonder why I don’t want to cooperate with jeric? It is like being a witness to a crime, you go to the police station, and over there the first cop you see is the one hitting your face with a baton in the post. Sorry, I am going to report the crime to one of your colleagues, please forward me to one of them.

• When Jeric read that, Jeric did put me on ignore on discord, shaming me for basically everything again. I am not even saying that my comment regarding the Message IDs could not be read as I wasn’t going to help anyone, but clearly I reached out to staffers to do so (roughly 2-3h later), and Jeric is…well, Jeric is absolutely taking Jeric’s side of a story for granted. No way Jeric’s assumption could be wrong. Probably around this time the announcement appeared and made me at least hunch at something has happened in the background for the first time with the affected persons, which I only have ass||||umptions towards this day. It did not help that Jeric was putting both of us into the same basket in the announcement, basically building the perception we both did the same stuff. (It also didn’t help me to make a judgement whether it was primary my actions or these threats of that one guy which resulted in the mental pain for people.)

Of course, I can understand how that one line with refusing to help looked to other staffers, but I really wonder whether Jeric did tell them that Jeric was fault on 3 or 4 breakdowns and what Jeric did actually replied to me in the chat. And that my reaction to Jeric was not because of Jeric is an admin/staffer, but rather because of what Jeric did do as a person.
I did only learn about the status update the guy submitted by the announcement. Not that the stuff he was texting me on discord was any better, though.

• The other guy did send me IRL threats roughly the same as towards the staffer, and did send me a picture that was too gross to me even want to describe it here with words, but I wouldn’t wonder if Jeric still thinks me and the other person are best buddies.
• I did tell and test with another staffer whether a banned person could still post blog entries, and reported to them. My account got purged after this. Don’t ask me.
• Just for transparency, I did roughly on Jan 10, 2020, accidentally find out that I could access my profile. I must admit that I did send a DM on my own to a single member, and I responded to another, but only because it was new and well…I don’t know, just didn’t think much about it. [The DM conversation was deleted later, maybe by a staff action]
  When staff seemed to find out I could still send DMs, given they lurked on my profile, I decided to write some kind-of (?) apology to both staffers, it was like a coin flip scenario: Either it would get better, because if I don’t, then I am not showing remorse of anyway or not being empathic with them, and if I would like I did, I risked of making things worse? I don’t know, that was my thought. Maybe I would apoligize in different words today, though.
• The other guy kinda made it clear that he was in an emotional dangerous state (I know, hard to believe I had to point it out another time). We both know what the person did, but…I still don’t think I should be more precise here. Let me just say I hope he gets better, and if it is only for his environment (and for such things not happening again in the future).

Honestly, some words of truthness and mistakes on my part? While I didn’t meant for it to happen, it doesn’t change that calling people trans/homo-phobes (directly or indirectly, I suppose?), did have a very hard impact on their emotional stability and worse, and I am sorry for that this did happen, I didn’t wanted for it to go that way. I should also have seen some sign earlier, I suppose. And even if I did not write or encourage that stuff the other guy wrote, at the end of the day, it only happened because I wrote to him and told him about my banning. So at least it wouldn’t have happened without me otherwise.

I can send you screenshots of the discord chat (once I am at home again).

That aside, any other question(s) regarding the case?

–Bas

• Me writing to jeric in DM, complaining about the ban
• Jeric basically enforcing warnings or whatever, and likely will point out I was just salty about them, instead of acknowledge Jeric is totally using devastating phrasing and wording, literally I felt ashamed most of the time Jeric actually replies whenever someone is going on Jeric’s nerves. How do I put it? It feels like a teacher is pulling you into the corner of the class, putting a funny hat on you and then shames you for every little thing that is not perfect on your. An endless assault.
  Basically, once you got Jeric’s ire on you there is nothing you can do or reply, Jeric won’t listen to you anymore what you got to say. Everything you write is just a means to manipulate Jeric then. No way out for you, no matter what you write or say, except maybe if you bow down to Jeric and apologize while Jeric points a gun at you and screams “APOLOGIZE NOW” - That’s how it felt for me.
• And as such, Jeric has caused the third or fourth mental breakdown of mine. Stuff where I did put myself in danger of physical self-harm in order to get rid of the psychic, emotional pain. (Jeric did once admit by replying “we know it hurts, that why we did it”, and I am not sure I can think of any breakdown related to MLPF in which Jeric did not play a major role…)
• I did post the ban message to other people on Discord DMs, albeit I was actually relucant on that very other person at first but did get persuaded by that guy. He basically told me stuff he would do, got actually even more aggressive towards staff than I was, and even before he posted the hideous threats, I did rebuke him and told him to stop pretty quickly.
  He also did post the allegation that one staffer is only in that position for dating another staffer, which I disagreed with by saying that the person was in staff on that position prior to dating (this is the only message from the screenshot in the announcement topic that was written by me)
• I did forward that chat to Jeric in Discord DM. Ironically, if I had no conscience and didn’t do so, I would not be banned. I don’t regret in the sense that I would do differently if such a situation would appear ever again, but wow, what an irony. Banned because I had a conscience.
• The day after, I was still in mental breakdowns caused by Jeric and had to take care to not harm myself, I deleted the message IDs of the other guy and said “I won’t help you”. This was explicitly directed at Jeric. Not at MLPF staffers. I contacted two or three after, of which one replied and I assisted with all information I had available.

• When Jeric read that, Jeric did put me on ignore on discord, shaming me for basically everything again. I am not even saying that my comment regarding the Message IDs could not be read as I wasn’t going to help anyone, but clearly I reached out to staffers to do so (roughly 2-3h later), and Jeric is…well, Jeric is absolutely taking Jeric’s side of a story for granted. No way Jeric’s assumption could be wrong. Probably around this time the announcement appeared and made me at least hunch at something has happened in the background for the first time with the affected persons, which I only have ass||||umptions towards this day. It did not help that Jeric was putting both of us into the same basket in the announcement, basically building the perception we both did the same stuff. (It also didn’t help me to make a judgement whether it was primary my actions or these threats of that one guy which resulted in the mental pain for people.)

• The other guy did send me IRL threats roughly the same as towards the staffer, and did send me a picture that was too gross to me even want to describe it here with words, but I wouldn’t wonder if Jeric still thinks me and the other person are best buddies.
• I did tell and test with another staffer whether a banned person could still post blog entries, and reported to them. My account got purged after this. Don’t ask me.
• Just for transparency, I did roughly on Jan 10, 2020, accidentally find out that I could access my profile. I must admit that I did send a DM on my own to a single member, and I responded to another, but only because it was new and well…I don’t know, just didn’t think much about it. [The DM conversation was deleted later, maybe by a staff action]
  When staff seemed to find out I could still send DMs, given they lurked on my profile, I decided to write some kind-of (?) apology to both staffers, it was like a coin flip scenario: Either it would get better, because if I don’t, then I am not showing remorse of anyway or not being empathic with them, and if I would like I did, I risked of making things worse? I don’t know, that was my thought. Maybe I would apoligize in different words today, though.
• The other guy kinda made it clear that he was in an emotional dangerous state (I know, hard to believe I had to point it out another time). We both know what the person did, but…I still don’t think I should be more precise here. Let me just say I hope he gets better, and if it is only for his environment (and for such things not happening again in the future).

@Background Pony #E184

@Background Pony #6467  

aren’t you the banned necrophiliac from MLP forums?

I am the other of the two guys. Don’t put me into the same basket as the guy who did send the IRL threats towards some staffers and a day later to me.

Infact, I was the one who reported the other guy to MLPF staff when he wrote that sick stuff to me in a discord DM, and I opposed him in the chat before he even got to the real ugly stuff. Have screenshots to prove.

Of course, I am very much aware of how the announcement post was written and how it puts both of us into the same spotlight. Of the chatlines shown in the announcement, I did only write a single one: The one defending a staffer to becoming admin prior to getting into relationship with someone else.

@Background Pony #6467  

aren’t you the banned necrophiliac from MLP forums?

Thanks, but what do you mean by Blue? The OC is Blue Visions, but it is not my OC. It is from someone I know by Discord

Bas