I like the art and the possible story here, despite being dark.

Oh… that’s just depressing… ;w; And kinda scary too.

@Background Pony #1E51  
They’re ‘edgy’

@AGM  
What the hell is wrong with you?

Beautiful artwork of a relatable struggle

I hate how much I can relate to this

@Thrashman
 

>8. give up their power
 

@Lynx318  
Scary pages? Really? IMO, there’s nothing scary about it, just mainstream non-serious dark stuff. Seems like the author is a 14 y/o girl stuck in 2012 when Pinkamena arts were popular.  
I don’t blame him though, I liked that stuff too.

@AGM  
Your art says a lot about you, yours is by far no where near what’s on Wolf’s scary pages. It’s actually almost all very good, only having trouble how you made that original comment, sounded too bleak to say to someone who is hurting.

@AGM  
And all I’m saying is if you behave like an asshole, then you deserve to live in a society of assholes. Unethical behavior leads to dumpster fire societies like Somalia. I don’t know why you’d confuse not being a murderer with being a communist. Those seem to be effectively opposite to me.
 
McCarthist America executed murderers, so I don’t think basic human decency is the same thing as being communist.
 
He who lives by the sword, dies by the sword.
 
I would much rather spend my life doing something that advances human civilization forever, than being some lord of the ants, in one corner of one anthill, and getting high on some delusion of power.

@Lynx318  
OMG, you’ve even checked someone’s posted pics to decide if he was a good person or not.  
Well I randomly draw sad stuff since 2011, looks like I have no right to talk to peope here at all.

@Cirrus Light  
Man, you’re talking like a communist. That’s quite unusual, assuming where you come from and what family where you raised in.

@AGM  
That past self is what is ruining you, let it go and become a better person.

@Background Pony #2696  
By all means listen to GOOD help, but not AGM.  
I’d be wary of Wolfman164, take note his posted pics, very dark and dangerous stuff there.  
@zylgchs best advice, don’t try and get help here on the internet, you need face to face help, start with a talk to your doctor, ask what can be done and for direction on professional help to go to. You aren’t the only lonely person out there, please find others you can get involved with in a proper help circle.

@AGM  
Why the hell would I do that?
 
I don’t doubt my capability, but you’re not worthy of your society if you are a detriment to it. Utopia belongs, and will only ever come to Utopian people. We’ll get Equestria on Earth when people act like Equestrians. That’s all it takes.
 
Maybe I can’t fix the world’s problems, but I can at least be a part of the solution and not make it worse.
 
I’m interested in making it better for everyone. Not just myself. Such a narcissistic existence is miserable and lonely. It will never know the joy of real love. To trade that in for some barbaric pleasure would be the most foolish thing a human can do.
 
And even a brutal, calculating, cold effective leader of killers has the self-control to react in a calculated way instead of however he feels. Freud would call that the Ego, and even it is better than the Id.

@Cirrus Light  
Its also why we have laws and enforcement to keep our self-control in check. Anarchy is pretty much never a good thing.

@Cirrus Light  
It’s awful to hear words about self-control from such a smart person who could possibly build a proper charisma and became a leader of some murder band.

@Background Pony #2696  
I feel sorry for his GF. I’d say he’s either got a mental issue (which is actually extremely likely) or he’s just being lazy. Sounds extremely narcissistic, either way.
 
Subserviance of base desires to self-control is the foundation of any civilization. We’re absolute animals, chimps that’d devolve into murder bands or couch potatoes if we didn’t exercise the self-discipline (ie, ability to sacrifice a little today to get more in the future) necessary to run civilization.

@Cirrus Light  
Personally, I don’t do that. I almost never do anything spur of the moment, but there are people who do. It depends on the person as to what the details are. They live for the present. Some work, others mooch. They just worry about the present and don’t think of the future. I know someone like that. He sits around and plays games/watches TV. His GF works, but he doesn’t. Its been a few years since I’ve talked to him, though.

@Background Pony #2696  
How terrible. How can anyone ever rely on you? How do you feed yourself? How do you contribute to the world? What do you do about deep longings, or do you never dream? It sounds frankly inhuman to me.
 
So I suspect you don’t mean exactly what it sounds like you’re saying?

@Cirrus Light  
You don’t have to have meaning to enjoy it, though. If you go through life following whatever pleases you, you aren’t seeking meaning you are seeking happyness. Think of it as a constant spur of the moment type of deal. There is no real meaning, just the pursuit of hedonism/happyness.

@Thrashman  
I find it sad you reject meaning. Meaning is literally the thing that makes life worthwhile.
 
It’s in sitting by the side of someone you’ve been friends with for years, or someone you love.
 
It’s in doing something you’ve wanted to do for years.
 
It’s in being somewhere you’ve never been before but have worked towards for years.
 
It’s in showing love and feeling that feeling of altruistic affection, because you just decided to do that.
 
It’s in being able to truthfully say, “you know… I’m doing okay right now” or working towards something big.
 
Life is like a trip to a theme park. It’s overpriced and the vast majority of it is sitting around in the hot sun waiting in lines and it’s pretty smelly and dirty. But every now and then there’s a short, amazing thrill that makes the whole thing worthwhile. I call that meaning.
 
The problem with rejecting meaning is not that life becomes neutral and pointless. No, the suffering of life is always there (no matter how much less suffering it may be in this century than the last), but rejecting meaning in life just removes what makes it worth the suffering.
 
Sure, the universe will go on. But why worry about that? You can think of a context where anything doesn’t matter. 2^2 = 4 doesn’t care about anything. But that doesn’t make it any less wonderful when you can look back and say, “I did good today”, or make the warmth of a hug any less.

@AGM  
This is not an attack on you. I don’t know if I can provide any comforting words but maybe that’s not my goal here. I don’t know whether any of my words will matter to you, either, but maybe I’m just doing this to sort some thoughts out.  
I usually lurk around here without commenting because I don’t like to get involved with drama. I guess I’m saying something because I relate to the topic here. I don’t know who you are or what you’re like but I’m guessing that you value individuality. You don’t want society to condition you to be a person that you’re not. What sucks, though, is that everyone can only be who they want to be within the constraints (the unwritten social rules) of society. From the day that we’re thrown into this world, we are conditioned by society’s social norms. Who you are now is the result of conditioning, just as you would be if you were to seek out help. I won’t continue on that last comment because I imagine it’s unsettling (maybe even ridiculous or disgusting) to you.  
Sure, we could go blame society for its shortcomings and stupid social rules and the way that it conditions us, but that wouldn’t get rid of the fact that we live in one. Society isn’t perfect, it’s chaotic. Chaos is a part of society. Maybe this is all off-topic, but just hold with me here for a second. Chaos is literally a part of society, there is no perfect system and there never will be. It’s impossible. That’s why you’ve got all these people saying the cliche that life is made up of obstacles. Suicide is the direct action of saying “fuck this system, it doesn’t work for me, I won’t take part in it”. Obstacles aren’t necessarily bad, they exist with or without a system (society). Cliches tend to have a certain truth to them because they work to fit a person with society. Society does not strive to create peace, it strives to reduce chaos. It’s true, there are no easy days.  
A large part of depression to me is the ability to focus one’s emotions and needs exclusively on the self. This doesn’t mean that you don’t recognize the impact of your emotions on those around you and don’t feel shitty about it, but you do tend to cater your needs to yourself. On a more personal note, I tried to commit suicide once. After failing I decided that I would never have the strength to do it and decided to move past my sadness. This doesn’t mean my feelings changed magically like a book or some fairy tale. There was no real “reason” or “meaning” to go on in life at that point, I just decided to because I realized I would never kill myself. I guess I’ve also always found the human obsession over the idea of meaning in life a bit ridiculous, since it drives people to depression and suicide. You don’t need meaning to live a good life, you just need balance. I didn’t have that at the time. This is delving into a bit of personal philosophy here. I believe that besides food, water, and shelter there are three non-physical essentials in life (some people have more than three, example: creativity - artists tend to notice time passing by if they don’t create and they feel like they’re doing nothing). These essentials don’t create meaning, but they help to make one feel better. Social interaction and friendship: we are social animals by nature. If we don’t interact with anyone we get depressed. Competence at your job or in school: feeling useful (or the illusion of it) will boost your confidence. Physical exercise: pretty straightforward, just a dopamine hit to the brain (not to mention you fit society’s standards of how to look).  
I’m not sure what else to say. You’ll probably ignore all of this and there’s nothing I can do about that. I’ll include this last picture (randomly) even if it is tumblr-esque or like something stupid off of facebook.

@AGM  
Also, plenty of people do so by the rules. Some don’t, and it works out well or it blows up in their face. Whichever way you want to go about life is your business, but what you are saying isn’t true.

@AGM  
And? Overcoming obstacles is, and will forever be, a part of life.