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Even ponies don’t dream solely about happy things. Princess Luna sure could tell countless stories about the bigger and smaller nightmares that are haunting ponies’ minds. Especially the most powerful nightmares often have their roots in buried memories, or memories that one wants to forget forever.
I imagine Starlight Glimmer being such a haunted pony. No matter if the folks in her old village have forgiven her, no matter how her new friends think of her now, those old unwanted memories sure would surface now and then… especially with everypony constantly reminding her of her past.Another one of my dreaming ponies. It hurts me physically to have drawn her in such a miserable state, but I wanted to draw a pony having some kind of nightmare, and poor Starlight just got the short straw I guess. Here’s my promise to Starlight: The next time I draw you, I’ll make up for it and draw you being really happy! Pinkie Promise :)
I’ve used very few pre-made vectors as resources this time, did most of the work myself! (that’s why it took so long and looks so bad =P )
This is mostly because I couldn’t find any good vectored backgrounds of either Starlight’s room or the cutie mark vault cave, so I re-drew them completely using screenshots from out of the show as reference. (The cave being a veeeerrry free interpretation… hey, it’s a dream!)
I also used this opportunity to have some fun with the bookshelf :D
Well, she does her father, named Firelight. And no her parents weren’t killed by anybody, although we haven’t see her mother in the show and we don’t what she really looks like or her name is.
Starlight: i dont want be alone like befor! i got friends now! friends who leason me were talk with them and play togeter!
i dont want be this crazy pony of equality!(she make a scare face!)
Discord: i dont want hurt my friends again and mosely fluttershy!(he do a sad face)
Trixie: Trixie dont see this Alicorn amule ever! trixie fear she return as evil witch again!(she do a scare face)
Luna: is the reason of our past of all is push us to a better future! like our..my sister celestia tell me!
Celestia: yes is true! but me too i fear something!
Starlight and trixie look celestia.
Celestia: fear to fail equestria and doom us all! i fear to never see my little sister again like befor! 1000 year wont see the smile of you luna is hurt me!(she cry)
Luna: this is why i…no we face it togeter sister! My big sister , Celestia! you be my idol for so long and now i am your equal as a Princess! the pony love my Night as the same is love your Day!
Celestia: true! but i wish is be soon!
Luna: the past is the past!
Discord: we better learn of it!
Starlight: true!
Trixie: or will repet it!
Whoo! More kind-of-official info on her past. Thanks!
@Kaden Bayne Vanciel
Actually, Josh Haber told me yesterday on Twitter that Starlight was a latch-key kid, which basically means that her parents were always so busy that she had her own house key and was alone a lot.
Until the show explains otherwise, my headcanon is that her parents weren’t really as involved in her upbringing as they should have been; most importantly, they never helped her through her abandonment issues after Sunburst left for Canterlot.
Nothing about her parents, nor anything about her childhood aside from Sunburst has been revealed as of yet.
Personally, I’m hoping for an episode that reveals how she got her cutie mark, and how far gone she was at that point.
Perhaps when I’m done with the two stories I’m buried in right now, I’ll see if I can come up with a worthy oneshot.
If I get enough ideas together for a story, I will do my best.
In a fanfic? Sure, go ahead. Maybe link it to me when you’re done?
I like that idea. Mind if I consider using it?
Heh, I mean, yeah, but…
I believe this piece sums up quite appropriately how those who’re highly critical of themselves AND are very ashamed of something they did cope. I personally am ashamed of some things I did when I was younger, and they’re still thoughts about those occurrences every now and then. For example, when I was 7, I stole some of my aunt’s jewelry so I could be popular at school. One of the stupidest decisions in my life. I lied about it to my grandmother, who caught me.
Some people would just let it go, but I can’t. I’ve never really been able to let things like that go, even though I very much want to. I want to let it all settle in the past and reassure myself that it doesn’t define me.
@Sparrow9612
@Background Pony #A550
Nightmare logic, more than likely. It’s something that’s blown out of proportion, because Starlight still regrets what she did, seeing it as drastically wrong and what it could cause. I would expect nothing less from someone who was on the brink of basically ending hundreds of lives, only to see the errors, and then befriend those who once were the focus of her destruction.
It’s a deep, brooding, psychological pain. A horror unique to every individual. It stabs like a needle, and cuts like a saw.
It also doesn’t help that Starlight has some anxiety issues.
@Sparrow9612
Nightmare logic, I’m sure.
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My past doesn’t define me!
My past doesn’t define me, you guys!
You guys. You guys. You guys! My past define me, you guys!
Celestia’s tits, are you guys ever going to forget about my past?! My past doesn’t define me, you guys!