Part 6 of a series. Click here for the synopsis.
 
 
My dear sister,
 
I nearly lost control yesterday.
 
It started in a council meeting, of all places. One of the councillors made a snide remark about the two of us, asking if I could be trusted given what happened to you. I know he was just trying to provoke a response in order to gain the upper hoof in the discussion, and losing my temper was certainly not the best move, but the question hit me hard. I was offended by the severity of the accusation, and I hated that he would use your name in such a way.
 
I adjourned the meeting quickly and returned to my chambers hoping to calm myself down, but I could feel the anger burning inside me still, far stronger than I had realised. It clung to my mind long into the night as I attempted to understand it.
 
There was a strange power behind it like nothing I had ever felt before, and it almost seemed like it was alive. Was this the same thing you experienced when you began to change?
 
Eventually I realised that what I was feeling wasn’t anger any more, but fear. I thought I was angry just because the question had been asked, but what troubled me most was that I honestly didn’t know the answer.
 
If it could happen to you, is it possible that I could fall as well? I know I have power comparable to yours inside me, and I have seen what happened when you succumbed to its influence. What I felt last night was only a small taste of that power, brought on by my fear and confusion, and I don’t know if I would have the strength to hold it back if it returned in full force. If that ever happens I can’t imagine what I might become, or what I might do.
 
I’m scared, sister. I’m not sure if I even know what I am any more. Is there a monster hidden somewhere inside me as well, and will I be able to keep it locked away forever? If I can’t, all of Equestria could suffer.
 
I can’t help but wonder if this is why there are two of us watching over Equestria, if each other’s oversight is necessary to keep our inner demons in check. But one thing is certain: I need you by my side again. I don’t think I can feel safe on my own any more.
 
Please come back soon.
 
Celestia
 
 
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